Musings from my Newsletter
The latest from the Indigo Instinct newsletter. AND the energy forecast for this upcoming full moon! ❤
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Hello Hello! Oh man, has it ever been a few weeks!
Did the new moon really just pass? Hasn’t it been 3 months since I’ve last written? Are we not in a crazy time wrap of purging, releasing and letting go?
I know I for sure am. In a vortex, that is, of purging, letting go, releasing all that no longer serves.
Do I successfully let it all go, let it all fall away and gracefully embody this new, unexplored version of myself that’s waiting to be uncovered as I come across each cycle?
… Absolutely not. I wish I could say I let all things fall away without resistance, without repeating cycles, without feeling like I have to face the same painful patterns again and again before I get ahold of them, wrangle them, and slowly let them go. But I do. Sometimes I’m afraid of the future — and staying in the gross, uncomfortable but familiar pattern feels safer. Sometimes I’m afraid of who I’ll become, because I haven’t met her yet. Sometimes, I’m just not ready to part with the pattern yet. (If you struggle with any type of addictive pattern or behaviour, you’ll know this one intimately. You can’t let it go until you’re ready to let it go!)
The point is, as the universe keeps asking us to expand, release, and step into these new versions of ourselves, sometimes…. We just don’t feel like we’re able to keep up. Sometimes, instead of feeling all new-skinned and glowy as we shed our former selves, we desperately cling on to the versions of ourselves we’ve come to know and trust — grappling with the pieces as they fall apart and getting whirled into the next version of ourselves as a result of stumbling directly into and through the storm, instead of staying poised in the eye.
And honestly?
That’s part of being human.
As cosmic spirits in this human experience, we often enter this embodied lifetime with the belief that we’ll just be able to “do” the things we hear about from our well-intentioned friends, our yoga classes, and in the spiritual community. We feel like everyone else must be able to embody this process, and is so good at exhaling all that no longer serves them, leaving their old snake-skin at the door of their newly-manifested perfect home and living environment.
We see the tiny, practiced moment of people’s lives on social media and believe that yep, they’ve figured it out, it’s definitely just me that is messy / lost / just above water.”
Here’s the thing:
Literally. No one. Has. It. All. Figured Out.
The process of the figuring itself, is part of the journey of being human being. It gets easier with age, experience, and a deepening relationship with self, sure — but it never fully straightens out. That’s part of the fun!
So here’s what I learned over this past moon cycle that I’m finding is helping me. I’ve been in my head, over-focused on things that don’t serve me, worrying, ruminating, and totally disconnected from my body. I’ve been consuming all my favourite numbing substances: coffee, sugar, and more sugar. I’ve been struggling with over commitments, body image, and general self-love.
AND, these are some of the teachings I emerged with:
Connect with friends. Seriously — even if you don’t think you have close friends by, or you feel like the new Netflix series you found is your new best friend, put the laptop go do something social. Anything. Even if you think you’re going to hate it, the call for connection is SO strong right now — my guides are
p r e s s i n g me to reiterate this. Go out. connect.
Who knows? you might actually meet someone you like.Put yourself out there. With the thing you wanted to try, with the event you wanted to go to but didn’t want to go alone, with the slam-poetry you’ve only ever read to the audience of mr. Snuggles. Go on. Take a risk. There is so much alignment in favour of “finding your people” right now. Getting yourself in the space where you’re actually engaging in activities you like is a great place to start.
Ask for help. Yep, I said it! Seriously. Ask. Ask for help moving even when you think you don’t need it. Ask for a hug. Ask for someone to listen when you call them up. Oh, and ask your guides for help, too! They literally will not engage unless asked. So, ask for help :)
